I am worried for my son!

Last night hubby and I watched the movie The Impossible (spanish Lo Impossible).

 It was based on a true story of a family who had went on a vacation on Christmas Eve at Thailand.  That year, Indonesia, India, Sri-Lanka and Thailand was hit by the dreaded Tsunami (more info HERE).

They were 5 in the family: The Mom and Dad plus 3 young kids (all boys).  While watching it, hubby and I thought what will happen when we were in their situation.  I don’t know how to swim that is why I am afraid of the ocean, Noel is afraid of the sight of blood while my son has socialization problems. 

I am not afraid for myself, I know what to do in case I’m lucky to be alive, but the what ifs were pouring in my mind.  My husband, though shy and quiet, I know can handle himself too.  But, what if my son a 5 years old with special needs was lost, what will he do?

People might not understand him easily.  He might not be able to tell his name when someone will ask for it.  He can’t understand other languages besides English as of the moment.  He may not ask for help. He can’t express himself fully yet.  So, what will happen to him?

I am controlling myself not to burst in tears just thinking of those things.  I know we can’t be there for him all the time.  We were trying our best to teach him EVERYTHING that he need.  But what if the worst thing would happen and we are not there for him? Ohhh I felt very sad just thinking of it!

At the back of my mind, I know God is telling me not to worry that He has a good plan for him.  I have faith and I know He won’t let us down if we believe in Him.  I entrust my family to Him and I know He will take good care of us. 

There are lot of people who love my son no matter what he is, but I know that only God can love him more than we can ever love him.